reality unveiled

some days ago marked the day which everything seems to "shui luo shi chu".

define a perfect life.
rich family background, a perfect love life,
good looks, smart and many more.
many hope to achieve aspects of such a perfect life.
but, they always end up suffering in the end.
these people tend to be the most influential people.
when things go wrong,
they tend to be the last group of people that outsiders will blame.

they dont dare to confront their own problems.
they only whine about it-
saying that if the next time such stuffs happen again they will what what what.
but in the end,
it's all "kong kou shuo bai hua" only.

it hurts a lot.
"di sheng xia qi" to make peace with them and what do we get in the end?
hostility!!!!!!!!!
sorry for the harsh tone.
i just really hate it.
i bear grudges! at least i'm not afraid to say it, unlike others.

the first time in my whole entire 18 years of living i'm doing so and what do i get in turn?
such stupid treatment! is it worth it then?!

stupid or naive or gullible you may call me.
but , somehow, i still trust people.
i'm still trusting people to such an extent that i dont mind me being the one who's suffering in silence.
i'm still trusting people to such an extent that i cried almost every night for the stupidest stuff.

but, i guess life's not about all these SHITTY stuff.
at least there're still people out there who cares for me and will stick by me.
what other people said in the past mean nothing anymore.
i rather direct all my attention, love and care to those who will always be there.

no matter what, i'll still trust You.
i know that all men are fallible.
i know that You can only be the one who's able to give me unconditional love.

i vow to study hard.
i'll prove to them and the others out there that,
i'll shine so much for You.

i'll prove to them that i may not be able to have a perfect life but at least it's a fulfilling one - one without regrets! :)